sabrinamari | Wondering why I am always so behind.

Why do I always find myself so overwhelmed and behind? Am I really behind, or is it just that I can't deal with the amount of stuff that normal people have to do? I always seem to have this break-neck checklist of things to do in my head: household stuff, personal care stuff, job related stuff, job-seeking stuff, Craft stuff, health-related stuff, transformational stuff, financial stuff---stuff, stuff, stuff!

Do I really have too much stuff to do on a regular basis, maybe because I don't say no enough and overload my plate on a regular basis, or is it my attitude that is the problem? Do I have a bad attitude? Like, not being able to appropriately relax and put aside things and only focus on one thing at a time, like normal people? What is the *actual* problem here?

The answer is probably obvious to my local friends who see me on a reglar basis but I am really stumped this morning.

Are the major contributors that...

1. I can't say no to request for help and I have crappy boundaries?
2. I can't relax and set things aside to be dealt with later like normal people?
3. I use constant activities as a way not to think and feel, as a way to self-medicate?
4. I have a bad attitude about needing to get everything done all at the same time and have it all be perfect right now?
5. Other stuff I haven't even thought of?

What is it? What? What?