Life of Joy

I haven't done a thoughtful, wandering blog post in awhile, so perhaps I'll do one today.
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EDIT: I've just realized that part of what makes this challenging---in a good way---is that I can't seem to compartmentalize as I think things through. Last week, Stephanie and I were talking, and she pointed out that men are generally better at compartmentalizing their thoughts and their lives, so they can focus on one thing at a time. She's good at this, too, and it makes things easier for her in important ways.

Gods, how I admire this ability! To be able to focus on one thing, do it immediately, and be done with it sounds like heaven. To make decisions quickly and forthrightly, and to be direct in thought and mind---gods how I love this in other people.

For me, everything is connected to everything else. An insight about Buddhism might lead me to rethink my understanding of poly, or a realization in one part of my life might push me to build a new model someplace else entirely. In many ways, this is good. As my beautiful mage_imbroglio said to me, "You are the opposite of compartmentalization---you are more like the Universe, in which everything is connected." It's good for wisdom, but hard on getting things done quickly, clearly and effectively.

There's this tremendous mess
Of waves all over in space
Which is the light bouncing around the room
And going from one thing to the other
And it's all really there---really, really there,
But you gotta stop and think about it
About the complexity to really get the pleasure.

We Are All Connected, Symphony of Science

I probably can't change this, nor would I really want to: one's gifts are always intertwined very closely with one's flaws/challenges. To reject one is often to lose sight of the other.

I guess I'll simply settle for noticing what's happening and learning from those who are different.