What I'm thinking about

A very good career choice would be to gravitate toward those activities and to embrace those desires that harmonize with your core intentions, which are freedom and growth—and joy. Make a "career" of living a happy life rather than trying to find work that will produce enough income that you can do things with your money that will then make you happy. When feeling happy is of paramount importance to you—and what you do "for a living" makes you happy—you have found the best of all combinations.

--- Abraham


Being happy is tremendously important to me. I want to have joy in my career, joy in my side projects, joy in my spiritual life, and joy in all my loves and friendships. I'm not going to try to have *only* joy, because that's not a balanced life, but since I have a choice and my own free will, I will choose happiness when I can.

And there is so much happiness possible in the work I wish to do in this world!

Laughing at myself...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbOKzhQ2x20&feature=player_embedded
"Shit Life Coaches Say"

Laughing at myself hard.

Kelly posted this elsewhere in her gently (self) poking way, and I too am guilty as charged.

I almost collapsed laughing at the toilet/bathroom scenes...so me

Sweetness

So, I'm sitting here working at all my stuff, and I realize that the end result of the last several months and all my recent choices is to feel as though I have become a genuine, honest, authentic and powerful human being who can be trusted to do well when things go badly.

I finally see that my instincts are pretty good, that I will be happier if I listen to them, and that I can and do live my beliefs successfully.

Even if I don't know exactly what am I doing, I know I'll work hard to do just the right thing and to be good to everyone around me while I do it.

I feel powerful, in the ways that power matters most to me. I feel like an agent, and I know I am capable of doing things my own way, even when people and circumstances around me seem to push against this.

I feel like a grown-up who does not have to lose her innocence.

I am capable of creating a truly beautiful and sweet life for myself. And though I value and love others, I do not depend on them for my happiness or my direction. Wow.

EDIT: Strangely, even though I think this is a year to rest and integrate, I also feel a little more like I can move ahead now, in slow, small ways. If I don't overreach or move too fast, I think it will be OK.

*headdesk*

I am assisting in a pagan biography project, because I clearly do not have enough to do.

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EDIT: Keith, you are gonna be so, so very sorry you missed this calendar party.