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sabrinamariSo, I'm sitting here working at all my stuff, and I realize that the end result of the last several months and all my recent choices is to feel as though I have become a genuine, honest, authentic and powerful human being who can be trusted to do well when things go badly.
I finally see that my instincts are pretty good, that I will be happier if I listen to them, and that I can and do live my beliefs successfully.
Even if I don't know exactly what am I doing, I know I'll work hard to do just the right thing and to be good to everyone around me while I do it.
I feel powerful, in the ways that power matters most to me. I feel like an agent, and I know I am capable of doing things my own way, even when people and circumstances around me seem to push against this.
I feel like a grown-up who does not have to lose her innocence.
I am capable of creating a truly beautiful and sweet life for myself. And though I value and love others, I do not depend on them for my happiness or my direction. Wow.
EDIT: Strangely, even though I think this is a year to rest and integrate, I also feel a little more like I can move ahead now, in slow, small ways. If I don't overreach or move too fast, I think it will be OK.
I finally see that my instincts are pretty good, that I will be happier if I listen to them, and that I can and do live my beliefs successfully.
Even if I don't know exactly what am I doing, I know I'll work hard to do just the right thing and to be good to everyone around me while I do it.
I feel powerful, in the ways that power matters most to me. I feel like an agent, and I know I am capable of doing things my own way, even when people and circumstances around me seem to push against this.
I feel like a grown-up who does not have to lose her innocence.
I am capable of creating a truly beautiful and sweet life for myself. And though I value and love others, I do not depend on them for my happiness or my direction. Wow.
EDIT: Strangely, even though I think this is a year to rest and integrate, I also feel a little more like I can move ahead now, in slow, small ways. If I don't overreach or move too fast, I think it will be OK.
