Sanity break

[sabrinamari]

OK.

This weekend offered several lovely spots of sunshine and some sadness. Of course. Friday and Saturday were perfectly lovely. Sunday, I did get to speak at B.'s memorial, and that was a good thing. I reminded B.'s friends about his great gift for energy healing. He was really good at it. Many were the times in which he took me aside to give me a strong infusion of lovely, soothing energy juice just when I needed it the most.

Talking about that with his friends and family felt good, but it also brought up a lot of sadness. [Geez, I will be *so* happy to see this melancholy peter itself out so I can get back to my usual cheery self! How do people live like this???]

The drive to Philly was pretty sad. I had fully intended to arrive ready to hit the computer running and massage our outline into something beautiful lickety-split.

Yeah. Not so much.

Fortunately, spiffnolee was full of the joy I lacked, and for once, I got to experience taking a little bit of glee from someone else. He was worried that he would overwhelm me and put me off, but I was so damn glad to spend time with another human being currently full of squee that I practically fell to my knees in gratitude.

Thank the gods, we decided to ditch the 'puters and search out a fine and lovely seafood restaurant instead. It came complete with a delightful Chilean waitress who was more than happy to chatter with me in Spanish and direct us away from bad menu choices. Many lovely tuna morsels and plenty of laughter later, I felt a lot better. When we actually got back to the hotel and got to work we made excellent progress. Brainstorming was especially exciting, and we came up with some excellent ideas that almost restored me to my normal level of cheer. We now have chapter assignments, some provocative secret agenda ideas and an initial plan that makes sense.

I rolled out of bed this morning in not too bad a shape and managed to make my way out of Philly pretty easily. On the whole, it was fun.

It was a pretty good experience, although I took much more than I gave. For the generosity and cheer of my co-author, I am very grateful. This experience also made me realize that I can't wait to get back to my normal self. I miss her delighted, happy ways. She loves everything about the world and really digs being alive. Come back soon, friend.

I guess I'll just have to be patient for awhile.

Comments

[wgseligman.livejournal.com]

Overall, you tend to give more than you get. If, once in a while, you take more than you give, then I say that you deserve it.

Don't worry about it when you receive more than you transmit. You've got peeps. If you start to become a psychic vampire, we'll let you know. :-)

[rio-luna.livejournal.com]

namaste.

[spiffnolee.livejournal.com]

Maudlin Sabrina is better company than most of the people I know.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

I can still write when I'm bumming. : )