Reflecting
Feb. 22nd, 2012 02:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sabrinamariOne of my peers has reminded me that I once said that "your ability to change and grow as a person is directly related to your ability to tolerate discomfort."
Now, I must live up to this.
It would be so much more comfortable to withdraw, having made my own quiet assessments of what reality actually looks like, and focus on changing the only thing I can control completely: my own course of action.
I know I can manifest a vision that gets me where I want to go despite challenging conditions. I've done it a thousand times with good results. I can manifest what I need, as soon as I understand what that is, why I need it, and what I need to overcome to get it.
When I depend on myself, I know I am golden.
But to remain in any kind of relationship to others who are themselves free agents: all unpredictable, each quite fallible, some unstable and perhaps uncontrollable---now, *that* is a challenge.
It requires willingness to engage in uncomfortable communication, manage internal discomfort, and remain present under potentially distressing conditions. In short, it is an opportunity to level up.
Luckily, I don't have to do it today.
Now, I must live up to this.
It would be so much more comfortable to withdraw, having made my own quiet assessments of what reality actually looks like, and focus on changing the only thing I can control completely: my own course of action.
I know I can manifest a vision that gets me where I want to go despite challenging conditions. I've done it a thousand times with good results. I can manifest what I need, as soon as I understand what that is, why I need it, and what I need to overcome to get it.
When I depend on myself, I know I am golden.
But to remain in any kind of relationship to others who are themselves free agents: all unpredictable, each quite fallible, some unstable and perhaps uncontrollable---now, *that* is a challenge.
It requires willingness to engage in uncomfortable communication, manage internal discomfort, and remain present under potentially distressing conditions. In short, it is an opportunity to level up.
Luckily, I don't have to do it today.
