(no subject)

[sabrinamari]

So I can see lots and lots of things that need to change. And this is a very good thing. Yesterday I also realized, in a very oh-my-gods-this-is-real way, that I can do anything I want to do. I've gotten in a rut of working a particular way, going to the same festivals and spending time wandering over the same old territory when I could be wandering the world.

This isn't a bad thing, but there's no reason for me to stick to it.

Yesterday I realized that if I wanted to go to Europe twice this year, I could probably do it. I'm planning to land on showingup with Michael and Trent sometime this year, maybe in May. That's cool. I also realized that I would really like to do a Flaming Genius retreat sometime very soon. Why couldn't I grab one or two fellow Geniuses and just go again?

Of course my friends have already made rational clucking noises full of caution and fiscal responsibility at me--and truly, I am the queen of fiscal responsibility---but since when have I ever been stopped in the manifestation of an earnest desire by the existence of rational roadblocks?

If I really truly want this I will find a way to make it happen for myself and my people. That's the way I am. Alternatively, I could set up an FG gathering here and bring showingup over to this side of the pond. That might be easier. All I have to do is sweetly and repeatedly sing the praises of my idea, plan, exhort, praise, be flexible, throw money at it and it would most likely work, even if only because my beloveds will doubtless get sick of my earnest and continuing blandishments.

Anthropological fieldwork is really helpful in developing top-notch blandishment skills. And you learn that after awhile, people will do almost anything to make you shut up and go away.

Also, some of my newer peeps are attempting to lure me to new-to-me festivals and interesting new experiences, and I can't think of any reason not to go other than maintaining fiscal responsibility.

So, I guess what I'm saying is that the world is really opening up and I have just figured out that I can do all manner of things that I somehow missed as viable options for growth, happiness and change.

Of course, Michael's response to this revelation was "Well, if you'd just stop spending all your time going to festivals you could do all kinds of cool stuff." He also gently pointed out that he had perhaps mentioned this a few dozen times over the past several years. I guess I just wasn't listening.

I could just go to FoV as a regular thing and then go to, say, Crete, instead of the others. And the next year I could go to Burning Man. I have always wanted to go to Burning Man. Or I could exhort my many, many crazy friends into doing something else---something really cool, something creative, and something really, really useful.

It's all very possible.

And lucky for me, I can talk Michael into anything and divalion into almost anything. Many of my other beautiful friends will also acquiesce simply to shut me up. Hmmm, if I talked Cat into something cool SHE could literally talk a metric buttload of awesome humans into that same thing, because that's what she does in the world.

The world is full of options.

Comments

Just as I finally manage to start getting to anything

[tigira.livejournal.com]

I'll miss seeing you.
I guess I'll always be too far behind because for me to do things takes more than a little planning.

Re: Just as I finally manage to start getting to anything

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

I will periodically make trips up to where you are. Silly, I roam the northeast seeing my friends everywhere!

Re: Just as I finally manage to start getting to anything

[tigira.livejournal.com]

OH, good. :)

[shades-of-nyx.livejournal.com]

Let me know when the NE roaming occurs. I'll meet ya somewhere.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Kay. Wanna meet your lovely peeps and see you in your local context.

[justusgirlz.livejournal.com]

I've been trying to get you to do this for years. Hmmmm. Maybe now I finally have a chance . . .

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Put the catacombs of Paris on the list.

[sligoe.livejournal.com]

The catacombs are the COOLEST! I was there in 1998---just amazing. Be prepared to take some of it away with you in your shoes---it is very wet in places, and the calcium leaches from the bones and creates calcium water---which I had in the stitching of my shoes until I had to throw them away because they were falling apart. I didn't want to give up the memories!

It is dark, it is dank, the bones are arranged in interesting patterns and there are altars EVERYWHERE. Just the coolest.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

This sounds like my kind of party: everyone is dead and very well-preserved, and there is art and creativity everywhere.

[pagandelight.livejournal.com]

showingup's place is lovely, and you'll have to go to the thai place in town — food there was delicious!
Also, if you're going by train, grab a samosa at the station — some of the best I've ever had! :-)

Yay for perspectives and opportunities opening up!

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Excellent. Train station samosa and Thai restaurant---check!