Retreat thoughts
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sabrinamariFoV retreats are always intense and tumultuous experiences. I already know when I walk in the door that I'll feel incredibly good at some point, incredibly shaken at another and that something completely unexpected will happen.
I know there will be heart sharing, kindness, truth spoken and heard, copious laughter and the release of tears with nothing held back.
And that's pretty much what's happened here.
I've come to see Team Venus as my new coven, and this retreat has confirmed it for me once again. Compared with groups I've worked in before, this one is a little strange: we meet irregularly and we come from very different places. Depending on the retreat, the actual make up of the group is different. But the bonding we experience and the heart's work we do is both familiar and powerful. It's among the best I've experienced---and I've been fortunate enough to gather some experience in this regard.
I am coming to trust these people with my whole heart and mind.
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Some of the best time, too, has been spent with Kelly. She's one of my biggest teachers right now. She opens up pathways I can't yet walk on my own. Spending time with her is like reaching into my chest, pulling out my heart and cracking it gently open as we both peer inside.
I don't know what I'd do without her gentle reassurance and kind advice. It feels safe and good to curl up with her. We take turns listening and offering each other guidance. Crying and tickling are equally OK. She offers me what she's learned from her own experience and I guide her with my cards.
During her throw tonight we kept dissolving into laughter because I just couldn't control myself. I'd throw a few cards and yelp, and she'd collapse in paroxysms of laughter. Then I'd start laughing and apologizing and we'd both just giggle uncontrollably...and do it all over again.
I can't hide anything these days. That's OK---the people I love are just fine with me as I am.
I know there will be heart sharing, kindness, truth spoken and heard, copious laughter and the release of tears with nothing held back.
And that's pretty much what's happened here.
I've come to see Team Venus as my new coven, and this retreat has confirmed it for me once again. Compared with groups I've worked in before, this one is a little strange: we meet irregularly and we come from very different places. Depending on the retreat, the actual make up of the group is different. But the bonding we experience and the heart's work we do is both familiar and powerful. It's among the best I've experienced---and I've been fortunate enough to gather some experience in this regard.
I am coming to trust these people with my whole heart and mind.
******
Some of the best time, too, has been spent with Kelly. She's one of my biggest teachers right now. She opens up pathways I can't yet walk on my own. Spending time with her is like reaching into my chest, pulling out my heart and cracking it gently open as we both peer inside.
I don't know what I'd do without her gentle reassurance and kind advice. It feels safe and good to curl up with her. We take turns listening and offering each other guidance. Crying and tickling are equally OK. She offers me what she's learned from her own experience and I guide her with my cards.
During her throw tonight we kept dissolving into laughter because I just couldn't control myself. I'd throw a few cards and yelp, and she'd collapse in paroxysms of laughter. Then I'd start laughing and apologizing and we'd both just giggle uncontrollably...and do it all over again.
I can't hide anything these days. That's OK---the people I love are just fine with me as I am.
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Date: 2011-01-09 06:29 pm (UTC)Seriously, this all sounds wonderful and I'm so glad you and the Team have each other.