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sabrinamariCrawled in from FoV at 10 pm badly craving my keyboard. But it's not the writing I crave: it's the feeling of pouring out everything in my head and grabbing ahold of the illusion of peace and sleep behind it.
Tremendous learning unfolded at this festival. I spent more time alone than at any other gathering in recent memory, but at times, I still wanted more. Despite this, I experienced so much that it will take me weeks/months to sort through it.
A few things I learned:
* I can neither force nor withhold heart-to-heart connections. They happen according to their own rhythms, and I can't do a thing about them. Any energy invested in trying to block or stop them will only make me incredibly tense. A better idea: look for ways to calm myself down and ask, "What am I supposed to learn from this? What's the gift here for me?"
* Learning to relax is probably the most important thing I can do.
* Beth, an energy worker on my cauldron team, told me: "It's like you're trying to grow new wings, and one of them is stuck."
* I can't do this alone, internally. The best experiences happened when I allowed someone else to help or guide me. I'll feel much better if I look for opportunities to collaborate/spend time with people who have more experience and can help me adjust to new possibilities.
* I need to be around people who don't have many expectations about who I am, and who can accept me as a work in progress.
Some later posts may be comment disabled. Sometimes I just need to get the noise out of my head without hearing anything back.
OK, I think I can sleep.
Tremendous learning unfolded at this festival. I spent more time alone than at any other gathering in recent memory, but at times, I still wanted more. Despite this, I experienced so much that it will take me weeks/months to sort through it.
A few things I learned:
* I can neither force nor withhold heart-to-heart connections. They happen according to their own rhythms, and I can't do a thing about them. Any energy invested in trying to block or stop them will only make me incredibly tense. A better idea: look for ways to calm myself down and ask, "What am I supposed to learn from this? What's the gift here for me?"
* Learning to relax is probably the most important thing I can do.
* Beth, an energy worker on my cauldron team, told me: "It's like you're trying to grow new wings, and one of them is stuck."
* I can't do this alone, internally. The best experiences happened when I allowed someone else to help or guide me. I'll feel much better if I look for opportunities to collaborate/spend time with people who have more experience and can help me adjust to new possibilities.
* I need to be around people who don't have many expectations about who I am, and who can accept me as a work in progress.
Some later posts may be comment disabled. Sometimes I just need to get the noise out of my head without hearing anything back.
OK, I think I can sleep.
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Date: 2010-09-27 11:53 am (UTC)Your work is beautiful. I love you. I so very much missed being there this weekend. *wraps you up in gentle hugs*
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Date: 2010-09-27 03:46 pm (UTC)When I saw you, I sensed this, yet didn't know it for sure, nor what it was about. I noticed a different Sabrina. Sending hugs to you dear Sabrina.
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Date: 2010-09-27 08:59 pm (UTC)Here and listening, as always...
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