Better this morning

[sabrinamari]

Yesterday I drew on the wise council of two friends. Listening to them helped me shift much further into sanity. I know what I need to do now. it's pretty simple, I'm already on track, and I simply need to encourage myself to stay on track.

As my dear friend dr._pretentious so insightfully put it, "I need to stop offering myself options that don't exist." I can have wisdom and truth, or I can have illusions that will never pan out and will continue to hold me back. I vote for wisdom and truth. I can live in truth and accept it.

Interestingly, when I realized what this meant for me, the bag of pain in my chest dissipated (sp?). I expect it will be back later, along with my ambivalence, though I'd rather these two stayed away. But for now, I can see, hear, and accept the truth, and it is good.

Comments

[vgnwtch.livejournal.com]

Good ol' dr_pretentious - always able to pinpoint and clearly articulate the important thing :)

[evilbunny.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you really know what needs to be done, it's simply the change and uncertainty holding you back. I completely understand about that. I always have time for you if you ever want to talk, or just get away from things and have a fun time. I'm here. *hugs*

[rio-luna.livejournal.com]

recovery is a process not an event. it's good you recognize that backsliding will happen.

but this progress is good. i'm glad you're feeling better. yesterday I slid back into anger and more anger at my ex. today it's past. tomorow who knows?

keep your chin up honey. more hugs.