I fall down, but I get up again...

[sabrinamari]

This week is another opportunity to learn to manage conflict from a centered place. There's alot of it going on right now in various places in my life, especially work.

I'm fighting the feeling that no matter how hard I try to make things work, I just can't make people happy. Numerous attempts to communicate my understandings and really grasp where other people are coming from have failed.

Sat-Tues was pretty discouraging, as a whole. I put alot of hours into various work and non-work related projects, and it seems as though they all either fell through or got dismissed during that period. Yesterday, I came home feeling awful. Luckily, M. was ready and zipped us all off on the first bike ride of the spring season. That helped!

I'm trying to work with Buddhist precepts to regain my equilibrium. Last night, I emailed a colleague on a non-work related project, trying to make some progress. I got an answer this morning and perhaps I'll be able to set up an appointment to talk this weekend. This morning, I emailed a co-worker who has been angry and stressed for a week, and with whom I need to meet. I'm dreading it, but at least I sent out the email.

I'm hoping for progress during the rest of the week, but realistically, if all I can do is hold my center during most of my interactions, I'll be happy.

Good news: dropped to 140 lbs. I'm keeping up with my weights and cardio and it's going well. I finished a short article Friday and the publishers who have my book should get back to me in about 3 weeks now.

Keeping my chin up!

Comments

[catpaw67.livejournal.com]

Hugs to you my dear friend. Keep up the work, and the results will come to you!

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I really appreciate your kind words and support, especially this week!

[ingridsummers.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, dear. You can make it through.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Thank you, honey! Your support helps. :)

[siobhra.livejournal.com]

140 lbs?
Your too thin to weight that. Unless your pure muscle. In 1969 when I got married I was 145. The top of my weight range is 155.
Last Friday's weigh in I was 239.4 Which is down from when I peaked at 249.8

Your my inspiration.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

I am honored. Truly honored.

Actually, I do carry a tremendous amount of muscle, and I want to add even more. When I'm at around 130-133 lbs., I have massive muscle and little enough body fat to enjoy it. That's when I'm happiest with my body: when I can bench a 35 lb. dumbbell in each hand and squat around 120, with a low enough body fat percentage that I can see my biceps, triceps and abs as they work.

I feel strong and healthy when I'm in that state, and my body is able to do almost anything I ask of it. That makes me happy!

I always wanted to be a super hero. :)

[skyefyr.livejournal.com]

First, I hate that you weigh that much less than me. :-P~~~

Now, how many times have you told me that I can't make others happy, they have to do that themselves. You can give advice, good counsel, and a push into a better direction than the one they are currently traveling in. But YOU cannot make them happy. They have to do that for themselves.

You know, with all the good advice you give you, you should probably try listening to yourself sometimes!

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

True enough.

In this state of mind, I mistrust the counsel I can give. I need to rejuvinate and regenerate for awhile in order to give useful, reliable support to others.

Undeerstand.

[shades-of-nyx.livejournal.com]

Been there, done that. Wearing the tee shirt.
Except your tee shirt would be way to small for me!

Re: Undeerstand.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your understanding.

I am hopeful that I will be more able to lend support in a little while. Right now, it seems that I need to ask for it.

Re: Undeerstand.

[sligoe.livejournal.com]

Dear heart---everyone needs a little help from their friends now and again! Remember---we are here to love and care for each other. Now we have the privilege of loving and supporting you through a difficult patch. What a wonderfully eternal circle this is!

Hugs---things will get better.

[puckmls.livejournal.com]

You're dealing with challenges in a positive, constructive manner. That's what I like to see!

And you can always call me to vent, moan, or brag.

[vgnwtch.livejournal.com]

When people around you are stressed and angry, it can be hard to remember that your responsibility is to do your job as well as you can, to be honest and true to yourself, and to be compassionate and try to understand them. You don't have to succeed at understanding them, and you don't have any responsibility for their reactions and responses. I'm glad you're remembering to go back to your centre. You'll get through it, I know.

[elphaba-of-oz.livejournal.com]

I have infinite confidence in your ability to handle these obstacles.

Any "Yay 140 lbs!"