sabrinamari | Christopher, Rose and the Frog

Right now I'm in the middle of exploring two bonds: one, an older one that I have allowed to wither and stagnate, with my biological brother, Christopher, and one with a 13-year-old named Rose that I met last week for the first time when her mother transferred her into my care at Free Spirit. I've been feeling a desire to reconnect with who my brother is now, today for a long time, but have been so enmeshed in my old life that I couldn't see when or how to do it. I think that may be changing, and I am interested and excited to see what happens next.

Rose is completely new. Peggy, an old classmate's of Ken, called me a few weeks ago to ask if I could talk to Rose, who thought she might be Pagan. I invited Rose to FSG under my care, with no idea what the result would be. The result was love. Real, powerful, take this child in and embrace her love. The closest I guess, to what I've felt for my brother. It totally blindsided me, but in a good way. Rose is amazing, and I have the feeling I've known her before and that we have been together many times in the past. We hung together all during the last two days and I could see the Priestess in her, strong and singing. I want to help that Priestess step out, throw back her head and call out her power from the core of being. This is something I know how to do, and something I can give her, if she wants it.

I'm very curious, and I'm starting to grow because of our connection in new and unexpected ways. Patrick also formed a tight bond with Rose, and the three of us seemed to "fit" together just beautifully at FSG, like nothing I would have predicted before I went. As someone who had almost decided not to have children, it just seems amazing to me and I am stunned with what this new blossoming is provoking inside of me.

The card that the quiz chose for me below is perfect. I *am* The Fool. I don't know where I'm going, and I don't know what will be the path I take; I am just trusting the tao. I know that I need to walk/dance/move in a new direction, a beautiful direction. I feel as though I am dervishing my way into a new world that I'm about to create. I have absolutely no idea what will happen next, but it will be exciting, I know.

I've got to ge out of my job as soon as possible and wrap up my revisions to make this possible. It's a dead end in so many ways...I think I'll call Woody, that man who asked if I had ever considered becoming a motivational speaker last fall. I'd love to make the leap, and the next and the next. Interesting...a frog leaped on me yesterday morning as it was escaping from a snake while I walked along a canal path. I wondered what it meant. The frog got away and then came back to sit by the side of the road while I squatted down to apologize to it for getting scared and screaming. I knew it was a kind of communication, but not exactly about what. It sat there, all green and gold and shiny and beautiful, and waited while I spoke. Hello frog, I am going to hop hop hop away from the snake, a lovely snake, just trying to survive, but not my destiny this time around. See you in the water.