Happy things, happy thoughts

[sabrinamari]

I wrote a huge number of really good, highly personalized letters of recommendation for a kickass student yesterday. I'm happy because I did a good job and because it's done. I think the letters will really help her to get into the graduate programs that she's targeting---and she's reaching for the country's top schools of public health. Now I'm done with all the letters of rec I was responsible for over the last few months---an intense relief! Good letters are hard to write, and a lukewarm/mediocre letter is worse than writing no letter at all. I'm glad that this responsibility is completed.

Shannon put on a fashion show for me last night, looking splendiferous in her various outfits. She's making huge progress towards her fitness and weight loss goals. The whole experience was fun, and inspired me to pull out my size 6 leather pants on the off chance that they might be close to fitting...since there will be dancing, clubs and pleasure in my near future. Amazingly, I could pull them on and come close to zipping them. I estimate that they will be wearable in 5 lbs. and comfortable in 8. Of course, I am shooting for comfortable, because it doesn't matter how hot you look if you feel constricted, uncomfortable and tense in your clothes---and I want to be relaxed, happy *and* hot. The near fit means that I might be able to wear the pants to the Philly mini-gather in mid-Feb., and certainly to FSG's Beltaine. I'm smiling. This is fun news, good fitness news and good financial news--the more great clothes I have that fit, the less I have to buy.

I'm making slow but steady progress in learning my computer system, too, and will dedicate a few hours to more room setup/house setup this weekend in order to make progress there, too, but I won't go crazy pushing myself. Life is good and remarkably free of outside criticism this days. That's new. I guess my friends are right; now the challenge is simply to cease and desist with the self-critical thoughts and behaviors and adopt a more relaxed approach to the inevitable transformative process that I'm experiencing. Well OK then, I'll do that.

Comments

[vgnwtch.livejournal.com]

WOOOHOOOO!!!!! It all sounds so good!

[wild-place-king.livejournal.com]

Great update with good news. Just as an aside, you are already hot. You will probably get a flood of comments about that, each of them deserved.

[vgnwtch.livejournal.com]

You're dead on the money.

[rio-luna.livejournal.com]

i must admit when I met sabrina and she'd talk, I couldn't even focus on what she was saying, she was so beautiful she'd just distract me!!

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

OK, I set myself this challenge: work on seeing myself *this* way, instead of in a self-depricatory way. This is a much better way in which to perceive one's self.

Also, thank you for the *very* fine compliment.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

{{{wild_place_king}}}

Well...Yeah!!

[owllady13.livejournal.com]

I am really happy that things are going so good for you. So glad to hear you are finally getting the things you deserve, rather than only what would keep you off kilter, on the edge of emotional starvation. Eat hearty (emotionally), as this banquet is yours!

By the way, I thought you were stunning the first time I saw you, and even more-so with each time since! *kises*

Re: Well...Yeah!!

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Thank you on all counts! I am much happier now, and have pledged to focus on the good things in my life instead of feeding my anxieties and self hatreds. This feels so much better. Thanks, too, for the compliment. I will happily paste it over the mean words I replay in my head.

[rio-luna.livejournal.com]

yea!! we're SO on the same page with 'rediscovery of our favorite pants'--just this week I was able to fit back into my super sexy old comfy fave Levi's 501 buttonfly jeans (33x34) that are not blue but pale pale grey. I haven't worn these since Lu was a year old ( i oost the baby weight fast but put it all back on and more when I came to Maimi and fell into a deep depression and my abuelita's cooking). I am SO happy I never passed them along to Goodwill--and I was tempted. But I held onto them in hopes that one day, my ass would fit back in. Like a good freind, a good pair of comfy broken in but not ripped to shreds jeans are too valuable to let go of.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Isn't this a great feeling? Having your faves available once again, and just feeling good about it! The whole self-hatred/body disgust thing is such a downer---such an energy drain. A simple thing like getting back into clothes you love can send it packing, at least for the moment, thank gods.

Keep me posted on your progress---I'm eager to follow the development of your new, happier, stronger body.

[skyefyr.livejournal.com]

I think we have the same leather pants! I also need to lose 5-8lbs to get into my one pair. I have a second pair in a larger size that fits everywhere but the waist so I need to get them "tucked" but I really want to fit into the smaller ones!!! Then again, I've been trying to lose this same 5 lbs for over 6 mos now. Feeling very frustrated!

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Hey, Shannon, Amy, and I are all supporting each other in our excess weight loss/fitness building efforts. We're going for a sane, haelthy approach to the problem. I'm also working with 3 folks at the Center who are all working towards reasonable fitness goals. You are welcome to join in if you want some support. : )

[skyefyr.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I think I'll take you up on that offer!

Great. Just.........great.

[seedmoon.livejournal.com]

That second paragraph just ruined me.
I'm done now. I'm not going to be able to focus on anything else for the rest of the day.

I might as well just leave the pajamas on and stay in my room.

Re: Great. Just.........great.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Ah shucks.

Re: Great. Just.........great.

[oakleaves.livejournal.com]

nod nod nod nod nod

[wild-place-king.livejournal.com]

Awww geez, I'm starting to pant and wheeze again. chest pain too!

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Ok, my dear, no chest pain jokes. They are scary!

Big hug though,

sabri

[wild-place-king.livejournal.com]

Okay, but I can pant and wheeze, right?

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Silly!

[wild-place-king.livejournal.com]

That's a "yes", right?

[serbrew.livejournal.com]

I agree with all other postings on the topic of you being HOT! hummina, hummina! So what am I supposed to focus on now? Hmmmm I know, Your HOT body! ;-)

[oakleaves.livejournal.com]

Ok, fine. Let's make something redundantly clear here: Sabrina is hot, has always been hot, and will ever be, dearest Gods, hot. k?