Random moments of stress

[sabrinamari]

I've noticed that when I find myself stressing out over mundane things (like packing, work, planning, whatever) I am much more likely to start thinking weird scary thoughts like, 'What if Michael died and I had to manage without him?"

It's just so strange.

Human minds are unbelievably quirky. It's almost worth making meditation study mandatory, like math or science, just to give people some basic tools with which to manage their obsessive oddities.

Comments

[arielmn.livejournal.com]

I've done that too. I try to figure out if I would be a capable person without John. I know I would not be who or where I am without him.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

I always feel that I would be paralyzed by grief.

[bobby1933.livejournal.com]

The mind is weird indeed. Today i needed to pass one more test to end my physical therapy. It involved standing on my left leg (the surgical leg) unsupported while moving my right leg back and forth smoothly. I could not do it, try as i might, my right foot seemed frozen to the ground. Then my dog, taking my efforts to be some kind of game, began to nip at my right foot. I began to move the foot and performed the exercise flawlessly. End of story, End of Physical therapy.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Wow. Great story, bobby.

[jasminewind.livejournal.com]

I usually imagine that some random tragedy will force me to enter the witness protection program. Instead of thinking "I don't really like (whatever it is I'm doing) ."

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Wow. Neat.

[rowanmoon69.livejournal.com]

It was a constant source of terror, debilitating in its intensity, during the year that Carl was in Iraq. Because of where he was and what he was doing, it was more than just a "what if" question. The possibility was very great that he would not make it home. I thank the gods every day that he did come home. Maybe not the same, but then, after such an experience, who would?

I determined at that point that if anything were to happen to him, I would likely wind up as an hour special on A&E's Hoarders - The Cat Lady who hasn't thrown anything away in 10 years. Yep. That would be me if he hadn't come home. I think, now, though, gods forbid, but if something were to happen, I have such a large community of friends and chosen family-- they would not let me fall into such a pit. And we would all be there for each other if (gods forbid) any of us were to suffer such loss.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

We would come together and take care of each other. That's what would happen.

I am so glad Carl came home to you.

[wgseligman.livejournal.com]

Now you've got me worried: "What would I do without Sabrina?"

I dare you to spite this fear by living a long and happy life. I double dog dare you.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

I am worried about you, Bill. I want to talk with you tomorrow.

[wgseligman.livejournal.com]

I have off from work, so I'll be home most of the day tomorrow; I make take in a movie in the afternoon.

To reassure you: Yes, I'm still sad from my experience at FoV. But it's far from the pit of despair. I'm dealing and healing.

[rio-luna.livejournal.com]

oh i do this too. SO annoying. hate this brand of brain-weasel.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Me too. It happens when I'm already emotional and kinda scared, and makes everything worse.