Things that I love
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sabrinamariThere have been many good moments this weekend.
* Curled up on the couch with Kelly, all wrapped up in my soft fuzzy blanket, perfectly contented, like two kitties in front of a fireplace. When we separated, we both made these spontaneous sad squeaks at exactly the same time.
* Listening quietly while J. talked to me a little bit about his life. I felt so privileged that he took almost half an hour to share some of his thoughts with me. It feels good to be able to listen, to witness, and just begin to understand.
* Listening while the men talked about crying. I learned so much: for me, crying is pretty simple, straightforward, and a direct expression of what I'm feeling---I didn't understand much about how it can be so much more complicated. Now I understand better.
* Noticing how much more easily we are able to work together as a group. It's taken us several sessions to really relax around each other (of course), but now we're started to feel more solid and less tenuous. I pointed how calmly and effectively we're working together, and everyone had a moment of "Wow, look at us!"
* Then Abe pointed out that I've finally started to feel like I fit here. And it's true. I spent our first few meetings asking myself, "Why do they want/need me here? What can I give them?" Now, I've just relaxed and accepted that I have a place here.
* Moments of calm silence. There have been several moments throughout the retreat when I've been able to quietly sit with someone and just be, without talking. It's rare to find someone who's comfortable with that, but here, there have been a few moments of it.
*Sitting in the sun getting petted. Big sigh.
* Talking with Rowan. I really like her. She's smart and interesting, and we share some mutual fascinations. I didn't know I had a lot in common with her, but I do. Maybe she would like to come to museums and archaeological exhibits with Trent and me.
* Cat showed me a copy of "Lost Girls," an erotic graphic novel that's kind of cool and interesting. I'm snatching moments here and there to read it.
* The sun, the green, the flowers. The flowers.
* Being back in a group of my friends, with petting and laughter and many, many opportunities to learn and grow. Figuring out new ways in which I can serve the ones I love.
*Feeling right at home.
* Curled up on the couch with Kelly, all wrapped up in my soft fuzzy blanket, perfectly contented, like two kitties in front of a fireplace. When we separated, we both made these spontaneous sad squeaks at exactly the same time.
* Listening quietly while J. talked to me a little bit about his life. I felt so privileged that he took almost half an hour to share some of his thoughts with me. It feels good to be able to listen, to witness, and just begin to understand.
* Listening while the men talked about crying. I learned so much: for me, crying is pretty simple, straightforward, and a direct expression of what I'm feeling---I didn't understand much about how it can be so much more complicated. Now I understand better.
* Noticing how much more easily we are able to work together as a group. It's taken us several sessions to really relax around each other (of course), but now we're started to feel more solid and less tenuous. I pointed how calmly and effectively we're working together, and everyone had a moment of "Wow, look at us!"
* Then Abe pointed out that I've finally started to feel like I fit here. And it's true. I spent our first few meetings asking myself, "Why do they want/need me here? What can I give them?" Now, I've just relaxed and accepted that I have a place here.
* Moments of calm silence. There have been several moments throughout the retreat when I've been able to quietly sit with someone and just be, without talking. It's rare to find someone who's comfortable with that, but here, there have been a few moments of it.
*Sitting in the sun getting petted. Big sigh.
* Talking with Rowan. I really like her. She's smart and interesting, and we share some mutual fascinations. I didn't know I had a lot in common with her, but I do. Maybe she would like to come to museums and archaeological exhibits with Trent and me.
* Cat showed me a copy of "Lost Girls," an erotic graphic novel that's kind of cool and interesting. I'm snatching moments here and there to read it.
* The sun, the green, the flowers. The flowers.
* Being back in a group of my friends, with petting and laughter and many, many opportunities to learn and grow. Figuring out new ways in which I can serve the ones I love.
*Feeling right at home.
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Date: 2011-03-27 03:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-28 04:51 am (UTC)I have a similar experience with my church family. And btw, I went to mass Sunday evening, and was warmly welcomed back.
The dream work that led to that will be posted when I get to a web connection, later today. It's nearly 4 pages typed.
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Date: 2011-03-28 11:18 am (UTC)