Yearning for the concrete
Nov. 1st, 2010 04:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sabrinamariIt feels as though I haven't written anything real in a long time, but I think it's been less than a week. In reality, I've been distracted by worry over the health of two friends, and between that and scrambling over the weekend, there's been no time to think---because writing is really thinking, but in useful, concrete form.
I'm itching to write. I'm itching to grapple with something real, something I can grasp or get a firm grip on, but it's just not happening. Nothing I want to engage seems to be within my reach right now.
Some of this restlessness can be probably be fixed by a long run and an intense weight training session; some of it is probably best handled by mindfulness meditation.
At least by now, I know that solutions to problems of this kind rarely, if ever, come from the outside. It's all about self mastery and my willingness---or lack thereof---to stay with my own restless mind.
But damn, I would love some distractions right now.
EDIT: OK, many of my Blue Star tribesmen are posting their hinge vows. That's something concrete and useful that I can mimic. Mine: to stop fighting with my body and just listen to whatever it has to say with acceptance, in all realms. I want to make it my ally, rather than treat it as a naughty child who is always trying to get me into trouble. I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be talking so loudly if it didn't have something important to say.
I'm itching to write. I'm itching to grapple with something real, something I can grasp or get a firm grip on, but it's just not happening. Nothing I want to engage seems to be within my reach right now.
Some of this restlessness can be probably be fixed by a long run and an intense weight training session; some of it is probably best handled by mindfulness meditation.
At least by now, I know that solutions to problems of this kind rarely, if ever, come from the outside. It's all about self mastery and my willingness---or lack thereof---to stay with my own restless mind.
But damn, I would love some distractions right now.
EDIT: OK, many of my Blue Star tribesmen are posting their hinge vows. That's something concrete and useful that I can mimic. Mine: to stop fighting with my body and just listen to whatever it has to say with acceptance, in all realms. I want to make it my ally, rather than treat it as a naughty child who is always trying to get me into trouble. I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be talking so loudly if it didn't have something important to say.
