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sabrinamariMade a medical appointment to get a thorough health check and talk about the possibility of taking temporary anti-depressent medication and/or sleep aids
Made an appointment for an anonymous HIV test, just in case
So far, so good.
Made an appointment for an anonymous HIV test, just in case
So far, so good.
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Date: 2004-12-13 09:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-13 09:59 pm (UTC)*hugs* Keep it up, hon!
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Date: 2004-12-13 10:45 pm (UTC)If I can help you through all of this, please let me know. It is a course that I have just recently navigated and perhaps can offer some practical help and support. Drugs are not necessarily the answer----but don't be afraid to take them if the doctor feels they will help. Be prepared for some adjustments----these kinds of drugs are touchy and can take a while to get the right "cocktail" that will give you the respite that you need. Sleeping IS the hardest thing to achieve---I still hsve enormous difficulty with staying asleep. I was up t 4:30 this morning, unable to sleep. Be prepared for that as well---the chemistry in the brain can be tricky.
In an earlier post, you said that you were feeling rage. Yes, I know all about that---and all about the feeling of "How can I feel this way about someone that I love/used to love? What's wrong with me? Why did he do this?" You will never find those answers within yourself----do not look for them there. Those are HIS issues---not yours. Yes, you will be angry---after all, you were deliberately hurt and betrayed by the one person in the world that was supposed to love and support you unconditionally. Don't try to eny the rage, or repress it---you will wind up in a more seriously depressed state. Acknowledge the feeling, channel it away from you and let it go. Stay away from Ken----for a while. Eventually, you will have to be able to face him, but right now this is something that you don't need to do. A physical is a good idea, as is the HIV test. I've had to do the same---it broke my heart, but I recognized that it was necessary for my own peace of mind. Right now---this is what is important. Do everything you can to engender peace of mind. My therapist gave me a bit of advice---she told me not to take on all of the responsibility for the breakup of my marriages. She told me to do one nice thing for myself every single day---even if it was only taking a nap. And, dear heart----DO take naps. Do indulge yourself when the feeling for sleep hits you. If you have sick or vacation time, use a little of it to just be home and rest, or to re-arrange your new place, or just go for walks and enjoy the air. TALK to your friends---don't isolate yourself and hide in a corner of your apartment.
Above all, remember that you are a child of the universe and the Goddess' special child. You have worth, your life has meaning, you are loved and cherished always.
Hugs and more hugs.
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Date: 2004-12-14 12:49 am (UTC)Do you by any chance live in Minnesota?
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Date: 2004-12-14 12:52 am (UTC)I've said this before: you have a slew of great friends who love you. I don't have to wonder why.
Hugs,
B.
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It is one of my hopes that, as I continue to get better and feel more up to traveling again, I can visit more states and see some of our country. I also want to go back to Paris one day to REALLY enjoy the city with someone who has a sense of wonder, adventure and romance.
Thank you for the kind words--Sabrina is very dear to me, as she is to many here.
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Date: 2004-12-14 02:45 pm (UTC)If there is anything I can do besides be part of your cheering section here (yay! Rah! Go