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sabrinamariI spent this week dutifully collecting interviews and running team meetings during the day and watching Trent and Collin for short periods in the afternoons/evenings. It's been both cool and wild. I haven't spent much time around children, and now I am easing into parenting.
There are moments of pleasure, and many moments of uncertainty. I don't know exactly what to do alot of the time. But that's OK. I'll learn.
Soon it will be time to snuggle off to bed and fall asleep until my my sweetie comes in. He is out with a few friends watching "Snakes on a Plane". I will probably fall asleep just in time for him to wake me up when he comes in. Life is sweet, and I am happy and in love.
My life is good. We laugh in this household every day, and some days we laugh so much we have to try not to pee! Two nights ago I thought we were going to pass out from laughing so hard.
Tonight, after I put Trent to bed, I put my 1989 and before photos in the first photo book I bought, and as I did it, I remembered many details of my marriage, my friends and my life in the late 80s. It was cool to put in the photos in something like chonological order, remember so many details, and just be at peace with my history. I'm so happy now that I feel good about embracing all of my history and just being compassionate with it---preserving a record of it. It all led to this moment and helped prepare me for this good life.
I'm keeping sample pictures of every period and every person who was important to me. I think it's useful and important to track one's life. It's a bit strange to feel no pain and no sense of loss with any of it, now.
There are moments of pleasure, and many moments of uncertainty. I don't know exactly what to do alot of the time. But that's OK. I'll learn.
Soon it will be time to snuggle off to bed and fall asleep until my my sweetie comes in. He is out with a few friends watching "Snakes on a Plane". I will probably fall asleep just in time for him to wake me up when he comes in. Life is sweet, and I am happy and in love.
My life is good. We laugh in this household every day, and some days we laugh so much we have to try not to pee! Two nights ago I thought we were going to pass out from laughing so hard.
Tonight, after I put Trent to bed, I put my 1989 and before photos in the first photo book I bought, and as I did it, I remembered many details of my marriage, my friends and my life in the late 80s. It was cool to put in the photos in something like chonological order, remember so many details, and just be at peace with my history. I'm so happy now that I feel good about embracing all of my history and just being compassionate with it---preserving a record of it. It all led to this moment and helped prepare me for this good life.
I'm keeping sample pictures of every period and every person who was important to me. I think it's useful and important to track one's life. It's a bit strange to feel no pain and no sense of loss with any of it, now.
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Date: 2006-09-02 07:25 am (UTC)My parents inform me that this does not change, even when your kids are in their 30s. They say you just have to make it up as you go along.
My life is good. We laugh in this household every day, and some days we laugh so much we have to try not to pee! Two nights ago I thought we were going to pass out from laughing so hard.
It's a bit strange to feel no pain and no sense of loss with any of it, now.
Hurray!!
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