Shit. Crap. Damn.

[sabrinamari]

I just discovered that I did not manage to filter one of today's private posts about some personal stuff---I meant to mark it private, for my eyes only. Shit. Crap. Damn.

Sorry to those of you who don't really want to read psychological explanations of infidelity and an exploration of treatment issues peculiar to those with personality disorders. Shit. Crap. Damn.

Can this day please improve alot RIGHT NOW?

Comments

[vgnwtch.livejournal.com]

You can go back in and filter it.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

I did. Can you still see it?

Dont worry. Your secrets are probably safe.

[elphaba-of-oz.livejournal.com]

It's not likely that too many people saw it. I have been compulsively checking LJ like a deranged rat in a psych experiment and I didn't see the post.

I would love to read psychological explanations of infidelity and an exploration of treatment issues peculiar to those with personality disorders. That's the kind of thing that gets me all fired up, whether or not I know the foks with the disorders.

Why do we become who we become? How much is hard wired by DNA? How much is attributable to the chemicals we encountered in utero? How much is life experience and little tommy calling us a bitch on the playgorund in third grade? How do we perfect, beautiful little creatures get so convoluted as we grow? Can we ever get closer to our new, perfect, free state or do we live forever in the prisons grow into?

Re: Dont worry. Your secrets are probably safe.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Thank the gods. Only so much humiliating stuff can be accepted in a single day.

I'll make a filter so that you can read the psych stuff I've been exploring and collecting, since you want to read it.

Re: Dont worry. Your secrets are probably safe.

[lindalee.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't mind reading it, either, but if it's truly private, I understand that, too.

[sligoe.livejournal.com]

HUGS, honey. The day is only 24 hours long, and at midnight, you get a new one! It will all be OK soon.

Hmmm, sounds interesting

[stephandcurtis.livejournal.com]

I'd love to read it, too. If you'd like, post what you feel comfortable with, or point me in the right direction.
Hope you're doing well, hon!

[vgnwtch.livejournal.com]

I never saw it in the first place :)

[willowoak.livejournal.com]

*big hug*

I've done that too. :) But it's likely that not very many people actually saw the post.

And despite everything, you can choose to re-start your day as of right now. Really.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

Taking that advice now. I made it home with my car in the snowstorm. I have work to do. I have cats. I have milk.

It should get better now.

[seedmoon.livejournal.com]

You had a snow storm?
It was 65 and sunny here........again.


I believe the appropriate battle cry is..

NEENER, NEENER, NEENER!

;)

Oh by the way....

[elphaba-of-oz.livejournal.com]

I really like the new icon. The Kanji in the background and the flower in your hair are very positive changes. I also note that you are skyclad, wearing only beads. (Amber & jet I presume?)

This is making me think about removing the suit and tie from my icon so my avatar can be the change I wish to see in my own world.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

laughing and shrugging my shoulders....it's the East Coast...what can you do?

[seedmoon.livejournal.com]

"what can you do?"

Invite you to visit?

:)

Re: Oh by the way....

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

WOW!!!!! I love your new icon!!!

It's you, smiling, happy, in a beautiful natural place with the ocean that you love right there---all skyclad and self loving.

Cool.

You know, I think you are right about the changes suggested by my new icon. I still like the old one, and will use it, but I think the new icon is full of positive change and wishes for growth in a happy new direction.

I am not sure what Kanji is---can you translate (it's the text in the background, right)? But it seemed appropriate since I am increasingly drawn towards Asian wisdom, feng shui and the way in which so much of Asian thought is about manifesting and promoting sustainable harmony.

Right now, that seems very, very critical to me. The flower is a symbol of rebirth, healed female sensuality, and sometime soon, perhaps this year, a renewed blossoming of health sexuality. The choice to be skyclad is about reaching towards self love. I didn't know what the beads meant until you mentioned amber and jet; I just knew they felt right. Yes, they are the amber and the jet. It's my ladder, which I would like to string alongside Cat, if she is available and I can arrange it

It's a hopeful icon, emphasizing happiness, acceptance and self love. Healing. Thank you for recognizing this and articulating it to me. I can see it so much more easily when the people around me point these things out.

[sabrinamari.livejournal.com]

I am already planning on coming and seeing you, Heidi, Jim, Carmen and all the Seattle lovelies. I even have an idea of when and how to swing it. There is no question that I will be there this year.

Re: Oh by the way....

[elphaba-of-oz.livejournal.com]

Kanji (I might have spelled that wrong - not sure) are the characters used in both Chinese (admittedly I don't know whether it applies to all flavors of Chinese) and Japanese writing. They are symbols, rather than letters as we know them.

The meaning is similar across languages. This allowed a Chinese ex-boyfriend of mine to give me an approximate translation of a text I picked up in Japan. It amazes me that written symbols signify the same thing in different languages, but represent words that sound completely different.

Your new icon is softer and more optomistic than the old, despite the loss of the kitty.

I'm not sky clad in my icon. My hair is covering the bikini that has been rendered too small for me by 15 months of living, driving and eating in central PA. But I will wear it again. The drawing site didn't have a big, floppy sun hat or a wetsuit for me, unfortunately.

More about Kanji

[elphaba-of-oz.livejournal.com]

Re-reading my reply above, I don't think I articulated what the Kanji mean to me. You mentioned that harmony is important to you. For me, Kanji symbolize a bridge to harmony.

The Chinese and Japanese have been involved in brutal wars against one another. Their cultures are different. Their languages are different. And yet a person in Tokyo and read a newspaper published in Bejing. Despite their differences and past acrimony the Japanese and Chinese people have a means of communicating. If communication is possible - understanding is possible. If understanding is possible - harmony is possible.

You have evolved into a bridge to harmony in the years since we've been out of communication. It's a beautiful thing for me to see.

[seedmoon.livejournal.com]

Snoopy Dance!

Cool new icon

[stephandcurtis.livejournal.com]

You look at peace and happy - I love it! Though I do miss that pic of your smiling face!
Seattle, you're going to Seattle??? When? I go there on business about 4 times a year (was there just 2 weeks ago) Maybe I can arrange to be down there when you are, or since Anchorage is only 3 1/2 hours by plane away, you can tack on a few days and come up here?!?!?!?!?!?!

private/not private

[shakti-lemaris.livejournal.com]

I'm completley ignorant to LJ etiquette in that area (and most others), but if you *want* your comments to be private or friends-only, of course that's as it should be.

But if it is more about blocking things that might affect the sensibilities of those who have friended you...can't they just choose not to read it?

I guess my question is, are we *supposed* to block stuff we feel is too intense or personal? And if so, I don't even know how....I don't know how to do this "behind the cut" thing that everyone does.