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sabrinamariI don't have the letter. He deleted it while I went downstairs for a moment after confronting him.
Too bad.
However, good news: my heart had really figured out that this guy is not what I want. I thought he's come alot farther than he actually has; he still has much, much further to go. And I DO NOT want to accompany him on that journey.
Strangely, I'm OK. I don't feel pain, although I did this morning. I am simply amazed that he has failed, so totally and utterly, to learn from his experiences. I struggle with the idea that he continues to make bad choice after bad choice even with all the therapy, help, advice and support he has received.
I simply cannot believe that he is so unable to grow.
Wow.
At any rate, I am free, my heart is free, and I want nothing to do with him whatsoever except to proceed as quickly as possible with a speedy and calm divorce.
Wow. How could I have misjudged him so much? How could I have loved him so much? I feel a bit stupid.
OK, I'm just going to put down the stick and go back to work. My dominant emotion is simply shock---shock that he can have ultimately learned so little in the time that we were together.
Too bad.
However, good news: my heart had really figured out that this guy is not what I want. I thought he's come alot farther than he actually has; he still has much, much further to go. And I DO NOT want to accompany him on that journey.
Strangely, I'm OK. I don't feel pain, although I did this morning. I am simply amazed that he has failed, so totally and utterly, to learn from his experiences. I struggle with the idea that he continues to make bad choice after bad choice even with all the therapy, help, advice and support he has received.
I simply cannot believe that he is so unable to grow.
Wow.
At any rate, I am free, my heart is free, and I want nothing to do with him whatsoever except to proceed as quickly as possible with a speedy and calm divorce.
Wow. How could I have misjudged him so much? How could I have loved him so much? I feel a bit stupid.
OK, I'm just going to put down the stick and go back to work. My dominant emotion is simply shock---shock that he can have ultimately learned so little in the time that we were together.
